The 2ww

I have lost count of how many 2WWs I have gone through, but even with all of those 2wws it still is very hard. This is our first cycle of TTC after our loss. It is hard to have hope right now for me. I want to be positive, but I guess the realist in my knows the odds. They are NOT in our favor. I don't know what I would do with myself if I actually got a BFP this month. I guess I'll find out in about 7-10 days.