Ok, freaking out a little tonight.

Tonight when I was giving myself the Lupron injection I leaked out the inj site! It was quite a bit; enough to kinda run down my tummy. I am wondering what I did wrong. I am going to call the RE tomorrow and ask, but for tonight I'm kinda nervous about it. There is so much riding on this IVF cycle that I don't want to do anything to screw it up!

Let the shots begin!!

I was thinking tonight how many shots I will be giving myself over the next month. I will do Lupron all the way until my ER, and then I will add Follistim and Menopur when I start stimming (which will be 3 DAMN shots a day). I am not the kind of person to freak out over needles or faint at the sight of blood or anything like that, but I can say I am not the queen of giving myself shots! I am thinking I will be getting AF next week when I stop taking BCP. My baseline ultrasound is June 8th, and that kinda seems like a long way away. It's funny to think that I could be pregnant in July! WOW!

Start Lupron injections tomorrow

Well, this IVF is starting to get more and more real. I will start my Lupron injections tomorrow. Now that I am starting my injections, this IVF is now a reality instead of just something we are "going" to do. I am a little nervous about having to use the vials and syringes instead of just a pen like I used for my Follistim. We got our financing, but now have to pay the first payment of $400 by June 13, which is weird since we really haven't had any expenses yet. Oh well, I'll give them a call tomorrow.

School has slowed down a bit. The kids and the teachers are very ready for June 1st! :-) I am counting the days! 7 days left! WooHoo!!

It's been a crazy week! (and it is only Wed)

It has been a few days since I have posted, but it has been really busy at work. We have had the 3rd/4th grade musical, Terra Nova testing, field trips, and writing trainings! I am so glad the end of the school year is getting close. I am a little worried about teaching summer school and my upcoming IVF cycle. I will have to miss about a week because of ER and ET and there are only 6 weeks of school. I am hoping I can just talk to the facilitators, confide in them about my IVF, and hopefully they can kinda cover for me. One facilitator is my Mom, and she is so good I bet she could handle both schools. Maybe I can talk to the teachers at my school and see if they can handle things without me for a week. I think being late for monitoring appointments would probably be fine, it is that long week. I am looking forward to my RE appointment next Wednesday. I was a little bummed that I didn't get my protocol over the phone when I called earlier in the week, but I guess there is a lot to go over. I am also going to see if I can meet with the financial person and apply for a loan. I had my mock transfer when DH and I went up last week. It was pretty awful. I also had the sonohsytergraphy (saline test) at the same time. It was pretty bad since I really wasn't expecting to do those tests, but now that they are done I am happy! The RE said again my uterus was "beautiful" and he also sounded pretty optomistic, which in turn has me optomistic. He also said we have a 50% chance for twins! That has got me pretty freaked out! Sounds kinda cool, but then reality of twins (cost and the thought of 2 babies) has got me nervous. But, 2 for the price of one does kinda sound good too! I guess I just want to be PG no matter it that means 1 or 2!

Boring night all by myself

I am sitting here all by myself and bored!!! Bored, bored, bored, bored, bored! DH is currently on the road bringing home the broken Juke Box that he is going to fix up. He won't be home until very late, so I am trying to enjoy my solitude, but I'm not. I've been really cranky today! I don't know if I'm just still tired or hormonal from the BCP. I tell you, I am tired of being cranky one minute and then crying the next. I can't wait until I start to feel like myself, but if I do get PG from the IVF, I will have all the PG hormones and then a baby so I think it might be time to say goodbye to my old self. I guess I just kinda have to find my new self. I guess my new self is no longer a musicain. I have quit my job as principal flute for the city band and have also quit my job as choir director at my church. Even though I am a little sad about leaving, I also feel a great deal of relief! I now have the weekends to do anything I want! I haven't had the weekends to myself for like 5 years!!! I am almost temped to go to other churches to see what they are about. I am still feeling very lost. Still looking forward to our appointment on Thursday. After our appointment, we will go to DH's sisters so he can fix their Ms. PacMan machine. Thinking we might run into my inlaws.

Why does it seem like everyone but me can get PG?

Another tough night for me. I think it is a combination of the hormones from the BCPs and the fact that I had hardly any sleep last night and a field trip today. I am exhaused and everything seems 10 times worse when you are tired. Tomorrow DH is going to go pick up a broken jukebox, and you really don't want to get me started talking about that!! Not only am I still upset about everything, tired as can be, but I also got home to my dog peeing on the carpet!!!! AARRGGGHHHHH!!!!!! I've been reading all the posts on BOTB and TTC6+ and every person but me seems to get getting PG. I am truly happy for all those getting BFPs, but at the same time I'm insanely jealous!!! When will it be my turn?