Yasmin is so much better

Oh my goodness! The Yasmin is sooooo much better. I decided to start taking my BCP in the morning, so I took my first Yasmin pill today at breakfast, and I have been feeling fine! Thank goodness.

Nothing much going on. I have 3 more days until my procedures. I am pretty nervous about them; 1. They hurt last time. and 2. That they might find something wrong. I guess it is better to know. The one thing I am looking forward to my appointment is to find out my schedule. Since I am a teacher, I am a planner. In fact, I have to be as a teacher. I have to plan each week, each month, and even the year. My principal is a stickler about plans. So, this not knowing my schedule has been bothering me. I will find out how long I take the Yasmin, when I start the Lupron injections and of course how much, find out if I get another period before the transfer, when I start the estrogen patches, when so do the PIO injections, and the all important transfer. The transfer day is hard to pinpoint until they check my lining and think it is thick enough. I'd like to at least have a ballpark idea when the transfer will be since I will be on bedrest for 2 days and DH will have to take toddler duty. I don't think I will be allowed to even pick up the baby. Oh, won't that be fun! I'll ask for sure at my appointment Tuesday whether or not I have a lifting restriction. Now, I wait.

One day at a time

I have been going quite crazy the last couple days. Since I am not working, that gives me pretty much all-day everyday to think about our FET. It seems like I go from thinking about having another child and assuming this will work to thinking I am wasting time and money since it won't work. I told my DH all my concerns the other night and his advice was, "Take one day at a time." He is soooo right! I know why I married him! :-) I sure will try to take one day at a time and not think too much ahead.

Femcon Fe SUCKS!

I have only been on this birth control pill for 2 days, and I HATE it! I've been taking it right before bed and have woken up both nights very nauseous. I called the RE to see if he could put me back on Yasmin. That was what I was on my first IVF and I didn't have much problem with it. I really hope I can be on something else because this stuff is terrible. I can handle moodiness, weight gain, etc, but I cannot deal with feeling sick to my stomach all the time. I can deal with that if I am pg, but not trying to get pg! No thank you!!

UPDATE: The nurse just called and said they called in a Rx for Yasmin! YEA!!!!! I hope this makes me feel better!!

The emotional roller coaster begins

I guess this is more real to me now more than ever. I went to the store to pick up my bcp, and they hadn't gotten it in yet. Ok, so yes, it was inconvenient for them not to have it when they said they would, but it is my own fault for not calling them first. So, I go home and figure I will come back later, and make sure to call! While I am home and waiting, I do a Google search about this BCP. It is called Femcon, and I had never heard of it. BCP and I don't get along well, so I figure I would get some info since I get very nervous about trying something new. I should have NEVER done that. I found a whole bunch of bad reviews about the stuff, which started to scare me. So, I called the RE's office and talked to the nurse. I asked her if there was something else I could take because the pharmacy was having trouble getting the Femcon (had to order it from Denver) and it was a $56 co-pay. The nurse, in her kinda pissed off tone, told me that they want me to take the Femcon and that's that. I don't know if it was the nurse not being totally friendly or what, but after that phone call, I started to cry. Why? A lot of things. I think the whole cycle just kinda hit me! First, I am scared to take this new pill that everyone says is awful, is expensive, and I've never taken before. Second, this brings back lots of memories of our TTC struggles of the past. It was extremely hard on me, and starting back with ART (Assisted Reproductive Technologies) just brings back the pain. Thirdly, I am afraid of the unknown. The uncertainty - Will I get sick from these damn pills? Will my mock transfer and SonoHSG be as bad as last time? Will the Lupron shots give me headaches again? Will the patches I have to wear have side effects? Will my embryos thaw? Will I get pregnant at all? Will I get pregnant with twins (which scares the shit out of me!)? Will this all be a waste of time, energy, and money? Will this be the best thing I've ever done? This roller coaster ride is not a fun one, I can tell you that!

Back on the IVF wagon again.

Wow, it has been almost 2 years since I have posted on this Blog. However, DH and I find ourselves back on the TTC road. Now that our little one is 15 months old, we are ready to try for baby #2. We actually have been trying for over a year on our own. After the baby was born, we decided not to try any contraception since we figured we wouldn't get pg and if we did, then we would be happy it was for free!! Well, it never did happen naturally for us, so we are going back to the RE and trying a frozen embryo transfer (FET). From our IVF back in 06' that produced our son, we have 2 left over embryos (6 day Blasts) that are frozen. It looks like our transfer will be in August sometime. So far, here is my protocol....

6/23/08 - Cycle Day 1
6/25/08 - Start BCP
7/1/90 - Mock transfer and SonoHSG

That is all I know for now. When I go in for my Mock transfer and HSG, they will give me more instructions. I know I will be doing estrogen patches, Lupron shots, and PIO shots, but I don't know when I start them, how much to do, or how long I will do them. From what the RE said at our consultation back in early June, the FET sounds a lot easier than the fresh IVF, but it is still considered IVF none-the-less. It is going to be a fun ride, especially now that I have a toddler
too!

UPDATE: I just got a call from the pharmacy for my BCP. It is a special "newer" BCP and my part to pay is $56! DAMN! I got a $35 coupon from the internet, but damn!!! Oh how I wish this would just be covered by insurance!