No more IVF

A Natural BFP for us!!!!!!














Here is the story...

On Monday Oct 27, I had talked to the RE's nurse about our upcoming IVF. (We decided to go ahead and do the IVF in Dec anyway). We talked about how many days I would need to take off, when the egg retrieval and transfer might be, and when I would need to go in for appointments. I told her that I was expecting my period any day now and she told me that as soon as I started to give her a call to start the birth control. Well, after getting the tentative schedule I realized that I would be having my pregnancy test right after Christmas. I have always tested early with a home pregnancy test and ended up with heart ache. So, I decided that for this IVF I was NOT going to test early and wait until my blood test. I knew I had one digital hpt left from our failed cycle in August. I didn't want it at home taunting me, so I was going to get rid of it. So, Tuesday morning I found it and was just going to throw it away. Being the nerd I am, I could just throw it away without using it. I figured my period was due any day, so I'd go ahead and use it. You could have knocked me over with a feather when I saw the word "Pregnant"! I couldn't believe my eyes!!! Did it really say pregnant? Was I imagining it? I woke up Benjamin (he didn't even know I was testing) and nearly scared him half to death. I told him I was pregnant, and his first response, "No you're not." I responded, "Yes I am, look!" and showed him the test. He could only get out, "Woa!" I called the RE and they had me go in for a beta. My result was positive, but the level was really low: 9.83. So, I must have been about only 10DPO or so, but I can't be for sure since I wasn't keeping track. I go in for another beta on Friday and am hoping my levels rise. I have continues taking HPTs and all have been + still, so I am hoping for the best. I am going to enjoy this miracle for as long as I can and am trying really hard not to worry.

YEA!!! I'm PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IVF back on hold

I know we keep going back and forth, but I think we are going to hold off on our IVF until May. The issues of my levels still exist, but we will just hope and pray that my levels stay ok for the next 7 months. It just seemed like we were being rushed into this IVF, and we really aren't ready. I was sick this past week and had to take 3 days of work off. That is huge when I only have 11 days off. Between all the half days I need to take for monitoring appointments and how many days I may need to take for the retrieval and transfer (depending on what day of the week it all happens) then I will be out of days. Hopefully, it will work and I will get pg, but then I will have no days left and if there is a day where I am sick or the baby is sick, then it will cost us about $300 and we need every single penny we make in order to do IVF at all and pay the payments. Another issue that makes us wait is my disability insurance was canceled. Because I was off work for the month of September, then it canceled my policy. I can get another policy that starts in Jan, but if I get pg before then, then pregnancy is a preexisting condition and not covered. My disability insurance saved us when I went into preterm labor with William and ended up being on bedrest. I left work about 2 months earlier than I had planned. With IVF, multiples are a real possiblity, and if I were to get pg with twins, then the chances of me having to go on bedrest would be high. I just can't take that chance. I am relieved and bummed at the same time. One one hand, I am glad to have some more time, to get moved into the house and settled, have the holidays without me being hopped up on hormones, not have to worry about how many days off or having to take off work for appointments and ER and ET, and maybe even try to lose a few pounds I have gained before we cycle again. However, waiting is a big gamble that my levels are still ok. Also, I'm not a patient person and waiting until May seems like FOREVER!!!!! I hope this was a good choice and really, I may change my mind again. However, it has to be decided by the time I start my next AF which is any day now. This is such a hard decision!

It's been a while

It has been a while since I have posted on this blog. Since my BFN from our FET we've just been in a holding pattern. Well, my RE wanted me to repeat my cycle day 3 hormone levels, so I had them tested about 2 weeks ago. When the RE called with my results I missed the phone call! Shoot! He called on my cell phone on a Friday, and when I checked my messages after school the clinic was already closed. So, I had to wait the entire weekend not knowing my results. It was really hard to wait. If my levels were off, then we knew our IVF was closed and our only option would be to adopt. Well, finally on Monday I got the call. GREAT NEWS! My levels are good, so we can go ahead and do another try of IVF. I guess, not another try, our last try. After this try we are done - no more money and I don't want to go through another IVF after this next one. Anyway, I asked the doctor when I needed to contact them if we wanted to do our cycle in the summer. The RE didn't really think we should wait. At my age (34, 35 in Jan) a woman's hormone levels can drop fast and my levels are only good for 6 months. He also said that if we wait, my levels might still be fine. It is hard to tell. So DH and I talked about it a lot, and have decided to GO FOR IT!!!! So, once I get my next period I will start my cycle! I will probably be on birth control for my next cycle and then I'll really get into the stimulation phase. Benjamin and I are going to Las Vegas the week of Thanksgiving, but we should still be ok. I'll probably need to take the Lupron with us on our trip, but I won't start the Follistim until after we get back. The bad part about starting this IVF cycle so soon is because of work. Now that I am back to working full-time it means a lot of days off. Every appointment means a half day off because my RE is an hour and a half away (one way). I talked to my principal and told him I'd need a lot of days off and probably a whole week when it comes to the retrieval and the transfer. He said to do what I need to do. I LOVE my new principal. He is the greatest. So, I guess we are really doing this. It just HAS to work this time!